To hear 26-year-old Jillian Banks talk about her music is like listening to a shaman explain the mechanics of a complex spell. Her debut record, Goddess, isnât so much a collection of songs as it is her essence embodied: her âheart.â Her fans donât just hear her, they âfeelâ her. And when asked how long sheâs been working on these tracks, she replies, enigmatically, âSince I was born.â
An air of mysticism has surrounded the R&B star since last year, when she was plucked out of obscurity by BBC Radio 1âs Zane Lowe. He played a Banks (often written as âBANKSâ) song at a time when there were no photos of the singer on the Internet and no trace of her on social media. Even the track, a mesmerizing torch song called âBefore I Ever Met You,â was only available via an obscure SoundCloud link. But Banksâs voice, raspy and limber, wafting high above a rumbling trip-hop beat, was striking. Listenersâ curiosities were piqued.
Banks, meanwhile, was confused.
âWe didnât understand how anyone even knew about [the song] or about me or anything. There was no picture of me out,â she says. âIt was just a natural thing that happened. I didnât force it upon people. They just felt it. Thatâs the best way to do it, I think, to all of a sudden let music touch you, rather than have somebody give it to you to touch.â
Freshly showered and makeup-free, Banks is perched on a faux furry seat in the lobby of New Yorkâs Dream Downtown hotel. Itâs her albumâs U.S. release date and I offer my condolences for having to spend the morning talking to journalists instead of celebrating.
âNo, this is all fun,â she says, in a voice so soft I have to lean forward to hear it.
Banks, a valley girl native of Tarzana, California, insists sheâs never purposefully perpetuated the mystique. And, true, after finally creating a Facebook page, she compromised by posting her cell phone number for more personal contact with fansâthough, she says, most are too shy to call and leave texts instead.
But some things must stay privateâincluding the identity of the singer in those breakup songs. âWhat if I never even see you âcause weâre both on a stage / Donât tell me listen to your song because it isnât the same / I donât wanna say your love is a waiting game,â Banks sings on âWaiting Game,â just before a sinister-sounding beat drops and murky, echoing vocals resonate. Ironically, when prodded, Banks gives me the same line that lover didâjust listen to the song.
âThereâs nothing else to say besides whatâs in the song, really,â she says. âThatâs the most straightforward and honest and raw way of putting what I was going through into words. I write because I donât know how to speak.â
Even so, with lyrics that read like diary entries and ringing endorsements from within the music world (singer Ellie Goulding once gushed to Banks on-air, âThings are only going to get more and more mental for youâŠYours is the most exciting voice Iâve heard in a long timeâ), Banksâs gigs have snowballed, from New York Fashion Week parties to Victoriaâs Secret commercials and the soundtrack for dystopian blockbuster Divergent.
Despite her seemingly abrupt rise from nowhere, Banks has been writing for more than a decade. An autodidact, she learned to sing and play in her early teens on a keyboard with âweird, light, out-of-tune shit keys.â The âsongsâ she wrote were more like âstream of consciousness little pieces of my mind with melodies attachedââbut post-Zane Lowe, playing live for an audience became inevitable. By only her second gig ever, she was opening for popular R&B recluse The Weeknd.
Her keyboard, however, has suffered a less glamorous fate. âOne of the first studio sessions I ever had, I brought it into the studio and the producer was like, âWhat is that?ââ Banks says, laughing. âI was like, âI thought we were recording today?â He was like, âGet that out of my sight and out of my studio. I never want to see it again.â I was like, âWhat? Itâs my baby!ââ
Banks is the sensitive typeâa trait which doesnât lend itself well to reading reviews. Explaining why she stays away from them, she references a book her father gave her, The Four Agreements, by Toltec spiritualist Miguel Ruiz. âItâs like, everything you do is for you and you canât control anyoneâs perceptions about you because thatâs their own truthâand how do you know their truth?â she says. âWhen Iâm at my most pure and most centered and most peaceful, thatâs what Iâm most in tune. Thatâs how I try to live.â