For software engineer and transgender woman Amelia Gapin, running has been a constant during a time of change.
âThe great thing about running for me is it still feels the same,â she tells The Daily Beast. âIt still feels great. The main difference is that Iâm just slower. I can put in the same effort, but then when I look down at the time afterwards, itâs slower.â
The fact that Gapinâs times went up is to be expected. Even though some media outlets make a lot of noise about women like Gapin having an ostensible competitive advantage in athleticsâas Fox News and others did this week after the Boston Athletic Association announced that transgender runners are formally welcome to compete in next Mondayâs Boston Marathonâthe process of male-to-female hormonal transition generally lowers testosterone levels to a normal female range, reducing performance accordingly.
Thatâs why the International Olympic Committee decided to allow transgender athletes to compete without undergoing sex reassignment surgery in 2016, why USA Track & Field follows the same guidelines, and why itâs no surprise that Boston Athletic Association chief Tom Grilk would tell the Associated Press this week with regards to the upcoming marathon, âWe register people as they specify themselves to be.â
Gapin, a vocal transgender runner who was the cover model for the July 2016 issue of Womenâs Running magazine, qualified to run in the Boston Marathon with her finish time at the 2016 Chicago Marathon and, although she was planning to compete in next weekâs race anyway, she tells The Daily Beast that the BAAâs position is âaffirming.â
âIt makes you feel like you belong,â she says. âYou get to be yourself and run this raceâyou donât have to keep something quiet.â
Keeping it quiet is how transgender runners have generally handled competing in marathons.
In fact, the Boston Marathonâs position only became a public point of contention after the blog Marathon Investigation wrote about Gapinâs participation, opining that although it was ârightâ for her and other transgender women to compete, it was not âfair to the runners that may have been bumped.â
In reality, medical experts like those who consulted on the IOCâs guidelines for transgender athletes have examined the issue and determined the hormonal requirements that are necessary to maintain âfair competitionâ (PDF).
Gapin tells The Daily Beast that the Boston Marathonâs qualifying process has been âmurkyâ for transgender runners in the past, and that it will still require her to present ID with the correct gender. The truth, she says, is that not much has changed with the BAAâs statement save for the added clarity.
Gapin says that this is more of a âstatement of inclusionâ than an actual policy change, adding that the idea that transgender runners are only now starting to compete in marathons is âobviously absurd.â
What is new, Gapin says, is the protection from mistreatment that a public statement like the BAAâs can provide at the race itself.
âIf you go to pick up your bib, and you hand over your ID, and that specific person is bigoted and wants to give you a hard time, before there were no rules for them to not do that,â she tells The Daily Beast. âNow, at least, if they try to do that, there is a policy that says that they are wrong.â
But that certainly wonât stop some media outlets from giving transgender runners like Gapin a hard time.
Although the AP copy for the Boston Marathon story that ABC ran pointed out that âfor trans women who⌠lower their testosterone levels, medical experts say thereâs no evidence of an athletic advantage,â Fox News opted for a headline about the âpossible advantagesâ that women like Gapin could supposedly have.
The Washington Times said that the BAAâs decision created a âfairness debateâ and presented it as a two-sided matter, rather than an issue that has already been resolved by expert committees and athletics associations.
The Boston Herald quoted a biology professor who claimed that transgender women who âstill have male gonadsâ will âhave an advantage over other womenâ and called the inclusion of transgender runners a âdilemma.â
It is not, in fact, a dilemma. Whatâs good enough for the IOC should be good enough for the Boston Marathonâand neither organizationâs position was established without a substantial degree of thought and study. Or, as Gapin puts it, âThey didnât change these rules because of our feelings; they changed them because research and data show that the old rules werenât necessary.
âThe rules are in line now with reality,â she notes.
But reality doesnât always matter to those who are already inclined to hate transgender people. The comments sections on articles like those mentioned above are the usual morass of misinformation and transphobiaâand Gapin does her best not to look at them.
âI try very hard not to get into back-and-forth arguments with people online,â she says. âGenerally, youâre not going to change their mind.â
Sometimes, Gapin will politely introduce herself, post some of her recent race times, and even share her testosterone levels, which are actually below the normal cisgender female range, and then âget out.â
âDoing anything more is just exhausting and, a lot of times, a waste of time,â she adds.
Still, the comments worry Gapin because, as she tells The Daily Beast â[transgender] people see these articles, but then they also see the comments, and then they see that thatâs the world they would be transitioning into.â
She jokes that, by being so open about being transgender, she wants to be a sort of âshit umbrellaâ for others who might currently be afraid to participate in athletics, taking some of the online punishment to make life a little âeasierâ for those who will literally follow in her footsteps. Because the truth is that, in Gapinâs experience, the running community has been âamazing.â
âSuper positive and supportive,â is how Gapin described it. âOf course, not everybody isâand thatâs to be expected because itâs the world we live inâbut for the most part, itâs been, really, really great.â
In fact, as NPR reported earlier this week, the New York and Chicago Marathons also have transgender-inclusive policies, meaning that at least three out of the six World Marathon Majors have now welcomed transgender participation.
Indeed, try as they might to gin up controversy, right-wing outlets have picked the wrong kind of sporting event to target because a marathon is, for the vast majority of runners, more of a competition against yourself than it is a race against other people.
âIf youâre not at the level where youâre competing to win prize money or place, it really does not matter [to people],â Gapin tells The Daily Beast. âI have heard of some issues that people have had but it seems to be few and far between.â
When Gapin runs in the marathon next Monday, she wonât be racing for a time, but to have fun. She hopes that by just being openly herself and having a good time, she can send a message to âother trans people who are maybe on the fence about transitioning [or] still trying to figure things out.â
âI hope they see me and the other people who are runningâor any other trans person who is inspiring themâand they donât look at the comments online.â