Editor's note: Jeffrey Epstein was arrested in New York on July 6, 2019, and faced federal charges of sex trafficking and conspiracy to commit sex trafficking. On August 10, 2019, he died in an apparent jailhouse suicide. For more information, see The Daily Beast's reporting here.
âJeffrey wanted me to tell you that you looked so pretty,â the female voice said into my disbelieving ear.
It was the fall of 2002. I was pregnant, uncomfortably so, for the first time and with twins, due the following March. I was besieged by a relentless morning sickness. I was sick in street gutters, onto my desk, at dinners with friends. I suffered severe bloating and water retention.
But here was this faux-compliment coming, bizarrely and a bit grotesquely, from a woman I hadnât metâa female assistant who worked for one Jeffrey Epstein, a mysterious Gatsby-esque financier whom Iâd been assigned to write about by my then-boss Graydon Carter, the editor of Vanity Fair. (Epstein had caught the attention of the press when he had flown Bill Clinton on his jet to Africa. No one knew who he was or understood how heâd made his money.)
Upon hearing of my assignment, Epstein had invited me to an off-the-record tea at his Upper East Side house (during which I distinctly remember he rudely ate all the finger food himself) and then had his assistant call to tell me heâd thought I was pretty.
At firstâit was the early stages of reportingâI was amused at having been so crassly underestimated. For a man who clearly considered himself a sophisticated ladiesâ man (the only book heâd left out for me to see was a paperback by the Marquis de Sade), I thought his journalist-seduction technique was a bit like his table mannersâin dire need of improvement.
If only it had all ended there. This was what it had been meant to be. A gossipy piece about a shadowy, slightly sinister but essentially harmless man who preferred track-pants to suits but somehow lived very large, had wealthy, important friends, hung out with models, and shied away from the press.
But it didnât.
I havenât ever wanted to go back and dwell on that dark time. But then the latest Epstein scandal broke, when Prince Andrew was accused in a Florida court filing of having sex with a 17-year-old girl while she was a âsex slaveâ of Epsteinâs.
In the last 48 hours Iâve had a journalist from the U.K. Sun newspaper put herself inside my foyer. Iâve been inundated with requests for TV interviews. And Epsteinâs old mentor, the convicted fraudster Steven Hoffenberg, recently released from jail after a 20-year sentence, has been pestering me and my agent to write a movie.
Separately, Hoffenbergâs daughter has gotten in touchâand itâs gotten me thinking. There are some injustices that maybe only time can right. And perhaps now is the time. Things happened then that simply shouldnât have, and if I donât talk about them, then probably no one will.
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It became obvious as I was reporting his story that you could essentially divide Jeffrey Epsteinâs biography into two themes. One was the hidden source of his wealthâhe claimed heâd fueled a lifestyle of vast homes, a private jet, and endless travel by managing the money of billionaires and taking a commission, a story that no one I spoke to believedâwhile the second mystery was his unorthodox lifestyle.
Then in his 50s, heâd never been married but had had a string of intelligent, good-looking girlfriends, including Ghislaine Maxwell, the raven-haired daughter of the late, disgraced British newspaperman Robert Maxwell whom he promoted from girlfriend to âfriendâ when it was over. She remained frequently by his side.
But the New York gossip was focused on the many parties he gave at his house, where he regularly hosted a mix of plutocrats, academics from Ivy League schools, and nubile, very young women. Oh, and also Britainâs Prince Andrew, whom he introduced to everyone as just âAndy.â
I got to work on all of itâand Epstein kept close tabs on me. He didnât want to be seen to cooperate, but heâd do his best to control me. He phoned regularly. I wasnât altogether surprised to be quickly summoned to the offices of the rich and powerful, sometimes before Iâd even asked to meet with them.
James âJimmyâ Cayne, then the cigar-chomping CEO of Bear Stearns, not only phoned me up, he found the time in his busy day to give me a tour of the office. He was on his best behavior, talking up Epsteinâs alleged supposed great brain, his value to the bankânever mind the fact that Epstein had had to leave it quickly in 1981; this Cayne put down to Epsteinâs ambition âoutgrowingâ the place.
I also met with respected real estate developer Marshall Rose; the former Bear Stearns chairman Alan âAceâ Greenberg called me; so too did Leslie Wexner, the founder and CEO of The Limited, who trusted Epstein so much he had given Epstein carte blanche to insert himself into both Wexnerâs family and business affairs, according to people who saw Epsteinâs contract; they all chattered on about Epsteinâs brilliantly creative mind, his intellectual prowessâa mental agility that, to put it bluntly, was simply not evident in the many phone conversations he had with me.
These were conversations that took a fairly grim twist pretty quickly. âWhat is the nature of the piece?â he kept asking. âDoes it have this aspect in it?â âThis aspectâ would refer variously to his philanthropy, his interest in biological mathematics, his well-known friends, some tycoons, some academic wonksâand yes, the women. âI donât expect thereâd be a piece on me without that,â heâd said, preening.
The women he directed me to were all respectable. There was a doctor, there was a socialite, there was Ghislaine Maxwell; they were all grown-ups, with the appearance of financial independence.
While Epsteinâs friends speculated that retailer Les Wexner was the real source of Epsteinâs wealth, Wexner (who called him âmy friend Jeffreyâ) never commented on this, though he did send me an email praising Epsteinâs âability to see patterns in politics and financial markets.â
My investigation began to take on unexpected twists. After a bit of digging I found myself not in some plush office setting but going through the metal detectors inside the Federal Medical Center at Devens prison in Massachusetts, where I met with one Steve Hoffenberg, a fraudster whoâd been convicted of bilking investors of more than $450 million in one of the largest pre-Madoff Ponzi schemes in history. He was sentenced to 20 years in prison.
Hoffenberg told me that heâd met Epstein shortly after Epstein had been kicked out of Bear Stearns in 1981 for âgetting into troubleâ and that Hoffenberg had seen charm and talent in him ââhe has a way of getting under your skinââand had hired him as a âconsultantâ to work with.
Hoffenberg, officially, ran Towers Financial, a collection agency that was supposed to buy debts that people owed to hospitals, banks, and phone companies, but instead the funds paid off earlier investors and subsidized his own lavish lifestyle. Hoffenberg told me had he had been Epsteinâs mentor and that Epstein had made a terrible mistake in doing something so high-profile as flying Bill Clinton, since that would only draw a spotlight to his business dealings. âI always told him to stay below the radar,â he said.
Aware that I was listening to a convicted felon who had lied under oathâhe was, after all, sitting before me in an orange jumpsuitâI left the jail determined to get more concrete proof about the source of Epsteinâs finances. Slowly, I got there.
It took many meetings of the type you see in the movies. There I was, with my growing belly, in the backs of peopleâs chauffeured-driven cars, in out-of-the way hotel barsâand finally, in my sixth month, when my doctor had begun to look dismayed and told me to take it easy, a train ride to a law firm in Philadelphia, where I and a research assistant were shown a room full of boxes with legal files, and the man who brought us there whispered, âGood luck!â

Luck did shine upon me that day. I opened the first box, and there was Epsteinâs deposition in a civil case explaining in his own testimony that he had indeed been guilty of a âreg d violationâ while at Bear Stearns and that heâd been asked to leave the investment firm; it was the nail in the coffin I needed.
I had discovered many other concrete, irrefutable examples of strange business practices by Epstein, and while I still couldnât tell you exactly what he did do to subsidize his lifestyle, my piece would certainly show that he was definitely not what he claimed to be.
I had to put all my findings to Epstein and, bizarrely, he seemed almost unconcerned about the financial irregularities Iâd exposed. He admitted to working with and for Hoffenberg but quibbled with some of the specifics of Hoffenbergâs allegations, reminding me that Hoffenberg was a convicted felon. Third parties in turn quibbled with his accounts, and he was irritated, but not overly so.
I was a little mystified at how benignly he responded to my questions about his business activities. Now, when I look at my meticulous notes, I notice that his tempo quickenedâand he was much more focusedâwhen he himself asked: âWhat do you have on the girls?â He would ask the question over and over again.
What I had âon the girlsâ were some remarkably brave first-person accounts. Three on-the-record stories from a family: a mother and her daughters who came from Phoenix. The oldest daughter, an artist whose character was vouchsafed to me by several sources, including the artist Eric Fischl, had told me, weeping as she sat in my living room, of how Epstein had attempted to seduce both her and, separately, her younger sister, then only 16.
Heâd gotten to them because of his money. Heâd promised the older sister patronage of her art work; heâd promised the younger funding for a trip abroad that would give her the work experience she needed on her rĂ©sumĂ© for a place at an Ivy League university, which she desperately wantedâand would win.
The girlsâ mother told me by phone that she had thought her daughters would be safe under Epsteinâs roof, not least because he phoned her to reassure her, and she also knew he had Ghislaine Maxwell with him at all times.
When the girlsâ mother learned that Epstein had, regardless, allegedly molested her 16-year-old daughter, sheâd wanted to fight back. âAt the time I wanted to go after him. I mean, physically, mentally, you know, in every way, shape, and form. And the advice I was given was, you know, he is so wealthy, he can fight you, he can make you look ridiculous, he can make your daughters look ridiculous, plus he can hurt them. And that was the thing that frightened me was that he would know where they lived and could possibly just send somebody when they walk the dog at night or something around the corner, and weâd never hear from them again,â she told me.
When I put their allegations to Epstein, he denied them and went into overdrive. He called Graydon. He also repeatedly phoned me. He said, âJust the mention of a 16-year-old girl⊠carries the wrong impression. I donât see what it adds to the piece. And that makes me unhappy.â
Next, Epstein attacked both me and my sources. Letters purporting to be from the women were sent to Graydon, which the women claimed (and gave evidence to show me) were fabricated fakes. I had my own notes to disprove Epsteinâs claims against me.
And then there was Epstein himself, who, Iâd be told after Iâd given birth, got past security at CondĂ© Nast and went into the Vanity Fair offices. By now everyone at the magazine was completely spooked.
But my sources, my young women and their mother, heroically held firm. They were going to tell their story, consequences be damned. And as for me? My doctor insisted that once I filed this piece I lie down on my bed and not get out. One of my babies had started to grow alarmingly slowly.
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I worked through December 2002 like a dog. I worked with three fact-checkers, the magazineâs lawyer; I sifted through everything Epstein threw at me and defused it. We were getting ready to go to press. And then the bullet came. âGraydonâs taking out the women from the piece,â Doug Stumpf, my editor, told me.
I began to cry. It was so wrong. The family had been so brave. I thought about the mother, her fear of the dark, of the harm she feared might come to her daughters. And then I thought of all the rich, powerful men in suits ready to talk about Epsteinâs âgreat mind.â
âWhy?â I asked Graydon. âHeâs sensitive about the young womenâ was his answer. âAnd we still get to run most of the piece.â
Many years later I know that Graydon made the call that seemed right to him thenâand though the episode still deeply rankles me I donât blame him. He sits in different shoes from me; editors are faced with these sorts of decisions all the time, and disaster can strike if they donât err on the side of caution.
It came down to my sourcesâ word against Epsteinâs⊠and at the time Graydon believed Epstein. In my notebook I have him saying, âI believe him⊠Iâm Canadian.â
Today, my editor at The Daily Beast emailed Graydon to ask why he had excised the womenâs stories from my article. A Vanity Fair spokeswoman responded: âEpstein denied the charges at the time and since the claims were unsubstantiated and no criminal investigation had been initiated, we decided not to include them in what was a financial story.â
But this wasnât a financial story, it was a classic Vanity Fair profile of a society figure. I donât knowâbecause I never asked himâif Graydon still believed Epstein when in 2007 Epstein was sentenced to jail time for soliciting underage prostitutes. But it has often struck me that if my piece had named the women, the FBI might have come after Epstein sooner and perhaps some of his victims, now, in the latest spate of allegations, allegedly either paid off or too fearful of retribution to speak up, would have been saved.
He has a way of spooking you, does Epstein. Or he did. My babies were born prematurely, dangerously so; heâd asked which hospital I was giving birth atâand I was so afraid that somehow, with all his connections to the academic and medical community, that he was coming for my little ones that I put security on them in the NICU.
When theyâd been released home some months later, I went out to my first party. There was Jeffrey Epstein, sucking a lollipop. âVicky,â he said, âyou look so pretty.â
Vicky Ward was a contributing editor to Vanity Fair for 11 years. She is the best-selling author of The Devilâs Casino and most recently, The Liarâs Ball (Wiley).